Nourish the Soul and Let the Light Shine Through
By Albee Shanefelter
November 17, 2011
12 weeks ago to the day, something occurred that I am certain will change my life forever. A nagging ear ache suddenly became searing intense pain across my right cheek. As time passed, this pain deepened and became more and more severe. After various Doctor visits, numerous brain scans, tests etc; the diagnosis was Trigeminal Neuralgia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trigeminal_neuralgia
Since then, I have been to hell and back. With the intensity and duration of the daily pain episodes, I could not perceive that there was any way that I was NOT dying (well guess what?? I am not dying – not today anyways :-).
The downward-spiraling shrouds of darkness along with the intense electrical firestorm exploding inside my head (note only the right side) literally brought me to the edge and it was there where I was forced to dig deep, very deep and look directly into the very center of my own soul.
It was there that I found a light – not an ordinary light, but a magnificent, brilliant, fantastically bright light that was emitting immense strength and energy. From that very moment, I took a conscious decision that I will never give in to the darkness, I must weather through each and every storm regardless of how severe the torturous pain may become, I will do everything in my power to nourish the soul and let this bright light shine outwardly towards all who shall cross my path.
I share this with you today not to gain your pity or sorrow for my current or future pain, but with the hopes that somehow I can leverage my experience to help others. I do not believe I will ever fully recover (although that would be nice), but with the help of modern medicine I have already improved and will continue to do so over time.
Please channel any good will, prayers and positive thoughts not to me, but to my family (wife, kids, parents, siblings, in-laws, etc.) as they truly are the ones who have braved the wrath of this beast along with me and helped & encouraged me to find this light within such that it may shine on far beyond my time on this Earth.
If there is ever anything I can do to help you or a loved one cope with chronic pain or really in any other way, please reach out to me.
God bless you, love to you all, and of course, May the Force be with you!