“Consider this permanent.” My family doctor said this as he washed his hands at the sink. It was like he was washing himself of me. How could someone I’ve been trusting to take care of me since I was a child not be able to come up with a solution?
He turned around and saw the look on my face and quickly said that of course this was a very pessimistic viewpoint, and there’s always a chance it could get better, etc. But, there wasn’t anything else he could think of to try for me.
Somehow, I’ve never thought of this as a permanent condition. I just went in for a tooth extraction! I’m very healthy and only in my mid-20s. Someone should be able to fix it. Someone…maybe if I just went to one more specialist, they’d have a breakthrough moment and find the magical cure. How naïve.
The specialists say there are other things to try. Topical creams, steroid injections, and Botox injections. Maybe even neurosurgery. But my family doctor might be right. None if these are a cure for atypical pain, and neurosurgery might make me worse.
I told myself to give up and just live with this, but still I find myself reading journal articles, orofacial pain textbooks and oral surgery textbooks to try to find an answer. I’m not a quitter. This goes against my nature.